Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Fare thee well, Ireland!

It's our last night here, and I'm experiencing some pretty intense grief- I feel almost like I did when I went back to work after my maternity leave with Tess.  I'm not overly sorry to leave Dublin, mind you.  For better or worse, I was ready to leave the city pretty much as soon as we arrived- something Dublin apparently figured out and decided to avenge.   Remember our wildly perfect last night in the north?  Tonight was not that night.  We barely managed to find a place to eat that would allow kids after 5 and didn't require a reservation,  they forgot to give me back my credit card in a store (which I failed to notice) on the one night of this month long trip that ensures I'll never see it again, and finally, on the walk back from the Luas, a bird let fly all over me.  Dublin, message received.  I'm glad to leave you to the many who adore you.   
But Ireland as a whole is a different matter.  
    It is in part the country itself, with it's outrageous, breath-taking beauty, deep history, rich mythology, lovely people and good beer.  Especially in the North and the Republic's Northwest, I could spend a year just wandering around with my mouth agape and my heart cracked wide open.
    But it's also this time I've had with my family.  Here we were able to spend time together without worrying about the house or the bills (too much) or the disastrous state of US politics or the demands of my church or Michael's school or all the suffering in the world that usually overwhelms me. 
    I'm reminded of early Christian ascetics such as the Desert Fathers of Egypt or St. Kevin right here in Ireland, who cut themselves off from the world.  They retreated from society not because they imagined they were better than the rest, but because they found themselves too weak to stand against the tide of society's ills.  I don't think I'm too weak, just too sad, sometimes.  It's been really nice not always being lost in grief.  It frees up lots of energy to do other things- like hang out with my kids and husband and actually fully pay attention to them and be open to the wonder and beauty around me.  
    Alas for me, much as I'd like to retreat like the ascetics, I ultimately believe we're called not to step out in order to be faithful but rather to step all the way in.  So I can't try to convince Michael to move to Donegal or Sligo, though the thought has crossed my mind numerous times. 
    And, there is an old Irish proverb that says "what fills the eye fills the heart."  Much as I grieve leaving, I leave with a very full heart.  And that will carry me into these next days.
And as for you, my friends and family who have shared this trip with me, as a parting gift, below is a review of just a few of the most lovely images from our time here, offered in the hopes that you too might find your  hearts filled.
    Allow me to leave you this one last time with an old Irish Blessing:
Deep peace of the running wave to you
Deep peace of the flowing air to you
Deep peace of the quiet earth to you
Deep peace of the shining stars to you
Deep peace to you.

Giant's Causeway, Antrim Coast

Dunluce Castle
White Park Bay
The Garden at Glenarm Castle



Breen Oakwood

Carrick-a-Rede


Donegal
Slieve League
Dunluce Castle
St. Patrick's Cathedral, Dublin
Newgrange
Glendalough
Jerpoint Abbey
Creevykeel

Knocknarea
Achill Island
Conemmara National Park
Grafton St., Dublin
Mulaghmore, County Sligo


Sunday, July 31, 2011

Guinness at the Source

Today was our second to last full day here in Ireland.  We leave Tuesday morning.  So the question was pressing- how should we spend our time?  View the famed Book of Kells?  Go to the Irish Heritage Museum?  There were endless choices, but the right one was obvious:
Could we really leave Dublin with our heads held high if we didn't have a pint at the source?
The Brewery is set up for tourists- lots and lots of them.  We walked through a series of displays that explained the brewing process.  There were bins of barley...
...a waterfall, with a plaque explaining that, contrary to popular belief, all the water used in Guinness comes from the Wicklow Mountains, and not the River Liffey, which I can assure you is a very good thing...
a huge shop and replicas of previous ad campaigns (he's playing Hurley, by the way, if you don't recognize the sport.  It's a Gaelic game)....
...and of course, numerous bars, all of which will pour you a perfect pint if you want one.
Which we did.

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Why You Should Never Drive in Rural Ireland After Dark (plus religious dilemmas and a beautiful island)

Well, I've fallen behind again.  We had two late, late nights and by the time I could write, my get up and go had got up and went (a hank of fur, a hunk of cheese, anyone?)  I'll still write separate posts for separate days.
    So, back a few days we were debating whether to stick with our original plan to travel down the west coast, ending in the busy southwest, or avoid it and stay longer in the north.  We loved Sligo so much we decided to stay another night and then spend our last night in County Mayo.  It meant missing nearly every well known part of Ireland, but we kept hearing how tourist clogged that whole area was.  So we made our decision, and I don't yet regret it.
    There were so many aspects of Sligo we still wanted to see- ancient sites, the places referenced by Yeats, areas associated with Irish myths...But we still didn't have enough time. So we finally settled on trying to find Tobernalt Holy Well.  
     The Tobernalt Well is now a pilgrimage site for Catholics, being closely associated with St. Patrick. But before St. Patrick used the well, it was a holy site for those practicing the older, earth centered faith. In particular, the festival of Lughnasa, which honors the sun god Lugh, was held at the well.  That practice is not entirely lost- the traditional day of Catholic pilgrimage is intentionally the same weekend the Lughnasa festival would have been held in ancient times.  (And I've seen a number of flyers, actually, for Lughnasa festivals in various places we've been- it's this weekend).  
    But while I could find information about the well, no where could I find directions to the well.  The best I could come up with was that it was by a pier on Lough Gill.  So we dutifully hopped in the car and began driving around the Lough.  After all, if it was a pilgrimage site, wouldn't there be signs?
Not so much.
At least, not where we were driving.
      We cruised along, Michael trying not to drive the car into the water and me peering up every dirt road we passed.  At one point, seeing a crumbling wall and gate, Michael pulled over and I climbed out to see if that could be the spot.  I went into a small courtyard, through the rock wall (if you look really hard, you can see the hole I climbed though), and out the other side.  By the water there was a building almost completely destroyed, with a huge tree growing through the wall.  And it should have been beautiful, but it was CREEPY.
Now it's true I've been reading a collection of old Irish fairy tales in which the fairies are almost always malicious, or at least devious.  And it's also true that the longer I'm here the more vivid my imagination becomes. But I swear, it just felt wrong there.  I practically ran out. 

    Finally, we gave up and asked directions.  Several times.  But we did finally find it, and it was marked near the well itself.  And it was very.....Catholic.  it had an altar, numerous stations for prayer, a sound system tucked in the trees, candles for burning, small altars with various white statues tucked into every nook...
    And I was, truth be told, completely put off at first.  It felt like it had been the Catholic version of Disney-ified.  Any inherent sacredness or power seemed to have been utterly subsumed by the inordinate amount of stuff that had been placed there.
    Now to be clear, I take no issue with Catholic worship in general.  Despite being a UU minister, I actually love the high ritual of Catholic worship.  But this well had been holy for thousands of years. Did people really need so much guidance to step into that holiness?  
   But what was really bothering me, of course, was the act itself of taking an old sacred site and covering it so thoroughly with Christianity that the rest was essentially lost.  It felt like a very concrete manifestation of the ways in which (some, some, some, not all, or even most!!) Christians judge so arrogantly and fiercely anything non-Christian, or not Christian enough, while utterly disregarding the ways in which Christianity is indebted to older religions for not only its practice but its sacred stories and beliefs.  (Garrison Keillor's ridiculous diatribe about UU's and Christmas comes to mind.)
   Which, needless to say, is not fair of me.  The well site was much simpler until it was largely destroyed in a storm.  It was somewhat recently redone with great care by people doing their best to honor the sacredness of that place as they saw it.  And it does have power for some.  We saw a number of people come and silently pray at those altars that I found distracting.  And tied to one of the trees were various offerings, each of which held their own prayers and stories, some of them likely heartbreaking.
    Eventually, as we sat in the quiet of that place (there are multiple signs asking for silence) I found myself revising my own inner narrative about St. Patrick and his conversion of Ireland from pagan to Christian.  I have always seen it as a story of religious violence, not physical but spiritual: ripping people from the earth honoring tradition of their roots and pushing them into the physically violent Christianity of the Middle Ages.  But we've been here long enough for me to understand that life was already physically violent- wholesale slaughter, rape, and slavery was the norm.  And the message of love, dare I say catholic love (small "c" intended),  offered by St. Patrick, himself a former slave, is the same revolutionary message I try to offer today in my own work.
    I am still pretty ignorant about St. Patrick's history.  But the visit to the well has ensured I will take the time to learn more.
    You may think I'll wrap up after that long, long ramble.  But no!  There's more.
We left the well and headed to Achill Island, pronounced Ah-kill, in County Mayo.  Achill Island not only had blue flag beaches, but numerous stone circles and dolmens, along with the highest sea cliffs in Europe, which we hoped would make up for missing the cliffs of Moher.  It was also a Gaeltacht region, meaning Gaelic was the primary language spoken, so we hoped it would be somewhat traditional culturally.
    All of the above was true.  It is absolutely gorgeous, filled with old sites, and an artist's enclave.  But there was a reason we were the only American tourists to be seen.  Oh my lord did it take us forever to get there.  The drive was beautiful- like stepping back into Donegal.  But by the time we got to the Island, we didn't have time to do much of anything.  Kai and Tess were burnt out on driving, and we had a two hour drive to the B&B ahead of us. So I kept them on the beach (such a hardship) while Michael went up to the cliffs- he had given me some good time to myself and it was time to repay the favor!
    It was cold on the beach, and if you look closely in the photos, you'll see there isn't a single person in the water not in a wet suit.  Everyone has them here, including kids, because the water is frigid.  But oh so, so beautiful!!  Despite the drive, if you are ever in Ireland, Achill Island is worth a visit.  Just leave yourself some time.
    Speaking of drives, we still had a long one ahead.  Which brings us to the last story of the night.  We left the Island around 8pm, planning to stop in Westport for some dinner before heading to our B&B in Cleggan, near Connemara National Park. Which meant we would get to Cleggan around 11pm.  After dark.  Gulp.
    The B&B was on a peninsula, in another one of those places to which  googlemaps and mapquest can't quite give you directions.  We made it to the turn off to Cleggan just fine.  But there were three different roads, and we had no idea which to take.  Because this has been a long post, and I'm tired, suffice it to say we drove for an hour up and down that bloody peninsula.  And I can now assure you that very narrow roads, crowded with purple loosestrife and meadowsweet, running along loughs on one side and dead ending into the sea, with no street lights anywhere and multiple unmarked turn-offs, are surely beautiful in the daylight.  But on the night in question, there is a small possibility that around midnight, as we were still driving up and down the roads with absolutely no idea where we were and two small girls in the back of the car wondering when they could go to bed, I asserted that I would like to stab said beautiful roads.  I don't know what that would have accomplished.  But I really, really meant it.
    Thank God Michael is an extrovert.  He noticed lights on in a house, and while I insisted they must be asleep, he pulled in.  We could see a whole family mysteriously up.  He knocked on the door, asked for help, and God bless the Irish, the elderly man of the house got into his car and led us to a turn off we'd missed.  Ten minutes later we were at the Hazelbrook Bed and Breakfast.
Thirty minutes later we were sound asleep.
Can I get a hallelujah?

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Knocknarea: cairn of a warrior queen

    Oh, there isn't nearly enough time to see everything there is to see here.  We could spend a month and still not know all of Sligo's secrets.  So we were grateful again today to have my new little book about Sligo, written by a man who grew up here and both knows and loves the land.  Once again it pointed us in directions we would otherwise have missed.
    After a very large Irish breakfast at our B&B, we headed out to Knocknarea (Cnoc na Reidhe), pronounced knock-na-ray, and meaning hill of the smooth slope.  The hill itself would have been beautiful, but we were there with a purpose in mind- to climb to the top of the hill to the cairn of Queen Maeve (Queen Meadhbha).  Maeve was an Iron Age warrior queen.  She likely did exist- a daughter of the High King.   but she is now wrapped in myth.  Legends tell of her fierceness, courage, and pride.  One of the most famous tales explains that Maeve was proud of the fact that she was equal to her husband in all ways except one- her husband had a big, brown bull and she did not.  She set about to remedy the inequality by first trying to buy, and then successfully stealing, a neighbor's bull.  Equality restored.  But when the two bulls got together, they began to fight, and eventually killed each other.  Well, equality maintained!
    She was a protector of her people and much beloved of them.  The cairn on the top of the hill would have stood as a beacon.  They say she is buried with her favorite sword and shield, standing and facing the North, ready to fight her enemies for all eternity.  
    When we started up the hill, all we could see was cloud shrouding the vast majority of the hike.  We decided to start up anyway.  Consummate hikers, fear not, we weren't being stupid.  The hill is only around 1100 ft and largely devoid of trees.  So the worst that could have happened, slips on rocks aside, is that we could have gotten very wet.  Which we did, as far as that goes.
    And who could have resisted it?  Is there any better way to climb to the cairn of a great warrior queen, half lost to myth and legend, than through cloud and rain and wind?
    The climb started gentle enough- up a path surrounded by tall grasses, wild flowers, and rock walls on either side, beyond which were fields filled with cows and later sheep.
    But as we went further up, the landscape got a bit wilder and rockier. The cows disappeared and the nimble sheep took precedence.  
    We were also going deeper and deeper in the clouds, and our range of visibility got smaller and smaller until finally it seemed like we were in a cocoon.  We could have been anywhere or nowhere. We had no idea how close to, or far from, the top we were.  We thought we must be getting there, but how could we be sure?  We couldn't see anything.  It was pretty wild.
    Then, literally appearing out of the mist, we saw Queen Maeve's cairn.  It was so much bigger than we had expected.
    Legend has it that if you carry a stone up Knocknarea and place it on the cairn, your wish will be granted (and if you remove a stone from Maeve's cairn bad luck would follow you).  So we had all brought up a small stone.  When we got to the cairn, we took some quiet time to place the stones on the grave.
    During the walk down it started to rain in earnest.  Attentiveness to slippery rocks and the increasing comments from Kai and Tess about their wet feet made the trip slightly less romantic, but it was still beautiful.  And I noticed the path was strewn with fossils.  I would have collected one, but I was afraid of Maeve, so I didn't.  
    After a lunch of crackers and cheese purchased at a gas station and eaten in the car (guess who does their work for love and not money?), we headed over to Carrowmore, another neolithic graveyard.  While these mounds dated to around the same time as Newgrange, there was only one mound that looked similar.  Most of them were just a stone here or there, a few circles.....so little left of what was once clearly a hugely sacred site.  
    And the site is sprawling- many of the dolmens are in adjoining fields.  There are at least 60 separate graves/dolmens in the area, but they estimate there may have been over 200 originally.  And all of the surrounding hills have cairns on their tops as well.  It's hard to imagine the importance this site must have once had.  
One of the mounds is around 7400 years old, making it "earliest known piece of freestanding stone architecture in the world."  Though we somehow missed that while we were there.  Not the mound itself- I remember looking at it.  Just it's age.  
    To be honest, we weren't really into the power of the place.  We'd been to Creevykeel the day before and had just had the intense hike at Knocknarea.  Kai and Tess were cold and tired and wet, and Michael and I...well, I think just needed some downtime.  You can't exist in a constant state of awe.
Well, I can't.  Maybe you can.  I need to regroup after a while. Step into a little schlock.  Thank goodness then, for our next stop (again care of the little book) "Gilligan's World" aka the Fairy Park, nestled at the foot of Knocknashee (Cnoc na shidhe) pronounced knock na shee, and meaning "hill of the fairies. "  
    The fairy park was the cheesiest..... 
schlockiest place perhaps in all of Ireland.  But Kai and Tess absolutely loved it.  Poor kids, they are such troopers for the most part as we haul them from place to place.  They really do love a lot of what we do- and I love being able to share with them the old tales and stories of strong women (a queen powerful in her own right!).  But they deserve a treat, every once in a while.  And if they find magic at the fairy park, then I say Amen!
To close, here is a photo of Knocknashee- which actually does translate as "Fairy Hill".  Of course, it's cloaked in cloud.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Sligo: The Ireland of my wildest dreams (and Yeats' dreams, too)

It's been too many days to cover all in one post.  Yesterday I can skip- it was an excellent kid's day at the Dublin Zoo, Pheonix Park, and a playground.  Good times, but no need to elaborate.  The day before, though, we went to County Wicklow, in particular to Powerscourt and Glendalough, both of which deserve some time (and photos).  But I can't write it up today, because I'm so anxious to write about County Sligo- beautiful, magical, myth-filled, Yeats beloved Sligo.  We've only been here half a day and I am already completely and utterly bewitched by this place.  Not a surprise, I suppose, since we're just on the other side of Donegal Bay, and I fell in love with Donegal, too.  
    County Sligo is the northwestern-most part of Ireland, barring Donegal itself.  It's wilder and more open than a lot of Ireland, and so far north there are few tourists here.  We are, we think, leaning toward making the difficult decision to avoid most of the more southern places for which Ireland is most famous. We just don't have the time or money to visit every place.  And even though we'd always planned on it, it now seems hard to justify going to Dingle, for example, for the "real Ireland" experience, when there will be thousands of tourists for the few hundred Irish who live there.  Meanwhile, it is glorious up here, it wasn't too far to drive, and we're not swamped with anyone other than other Irish folks getting away.  
    We arrived at our B&B around 3pm (having passed a random stone circle in someone's field along the way) and immediately set out for a snack and someplace interesting to visit.  We ended up right up the street at Drumcliffe Church.  Most immediately pressing, it had a tea shop.  After we ate something, we became significantly more interested in the fact that it was also the burial place of poet WB Yeats, the location of a medieval circular tower (left from an ancient monastery) and home to one of the best High Crosses in the country, erected in the 9th century.
    Yeats is, I am discovering,  a beautiful poet.  I am shamefully ignorant of his work, despite his being well known.  But we are in Yeats country now...as numerous signs reminds us. Yeats called Sligo "The Land of Heart's Desire."  His poetry is full of references to natural landmarks in our immediate surrounding area, some of which we'll probably visit tomorrow.  Yeats fell in love with Sligo during his numerous visits to his grandparents here.  He moved to France for his health in the years before he died and was buried there.  But he had made it clear, in the 6th stanza of his poem Under Benbulben, that he wanted to be buried at Drumcliffe Church, where his grandfather had served. 
Under bare Ben Bulben's head
In Drumcliff churchyard Yeats is laid.
An ancestor was rector there
Long years ago, a church stands near,
By the road an ancient cross.
No marble, no conventional phrase;
On limestone quarried near the spot
By his command these words are cut:
Cast a cold eye
On life, on death.
Horseman, pass by! 
And he was finally re-interred here, at the foot of Benbulben Mountain.  
    I almost got a book of Yeats poetry to read tonight, but opted instead to get a book of watercolors and descriptions of places around Sligo.  I was hoping it would offer insight beyond what we were able to find in the books and online about what we might see in our far too short time here.  And boy did it come through!  I skimmed it in the car as we were trying to decide where to go next, and came across a very brief entry in the back, mentioning a place called Creevykeel Court Tomb, another neolithic passage tomb. I checked all three of the books we had brought- Frommers, Lonely Planet, and Hidden Places in Ireland (our host family's book). Nothing.  I checked the map and couldn't find it anywhere.  Finally, I spotted it, not too far up the coast from us.  We drove up and almost past it- nothing but a small, empty parking lot and a tiny sign.  We backed up, parked, and walked up the very short path that led behind a huge hedge.
At the first glimpse of stones, we noticed dozens of prayer flags had been tied twigs and branches.
We stepped into the clearing, and beheld Creevykeel.  
And it was amazing.
Built the same time as Newgrange, Creevykeel has been left as it fell.  There are standing stone circles and clear passages surrounded by masses of smaller stones.
    With the exception of about 10 minutes when another couple blew in, snapped some photos and blew out again, we were completely alone the whole time we were there.  
We were able to walk around quietly, pay attention to details (like this spiral of moss growing on one of the rocks)...it was another place where it was easy to fall into reverence. 
    Kaia and Tessa sensed it as well.  Tess, after I told them we would tie prayer flags before we left, went over of her own accord, put her hands on one of the flags, took a deep breathe, and started to pray.  I would have given just about anything to know what was in her little heart right then.
And both Kaia and Tessa wanted "alone time" in one of the open circles, so we all sat in our own sections, out of sight from one another.  
    And it wasn't in the books at all.  It just sits there, in the sun and rain, holding 5000 years of sacred history within its circles, waiting for whoever is lucky enough to happen upon it.
    After Creevykeel, we needed some dinner. It was around 7:30, after all.  So we arbitrarily decided to head down to Mullaghmore, because we passed it on the way back to the B&B and because it was a village on the water, which we thought might be nice.
To say the least!  The first two photos in this post are of the area.  
    Again, practically no-one there. How is it possible?  It was a beautiful little town, with a sweet little beach (a blue flag beach, as the best are called here), at the foot of high, cliff-like mountains.  I thought it was the other side of Benbulben, but having checked my watercolor book after we got back, I'm now pretty sure it was Benwisken. Benwisken is similarly shaped in many ways, but has a wedge from one angle, like the prow of a ship.  
    We ate, walked on the beach (it's around 9:30 pm in this photo.  We love Ireland's long daylight hours!), and finally headed home.
    Just in time to pass, way off in the distance, Classiebawn Castle at Sunset.